Hi, I'm Kristine, and apparently, I'm a child hater.
Don't know when it happened, but I can't look at them right now. It's so painful.
I fought this. I didn't want this to happen.
In the months after Cora died, being around kids didn't bother me so much. I even held a newborn a few weeks after she died.
But, now I hold back tears. Being around children, especially little girls is pure torture. I think it's why I fled New York. All those kids. I can't do it.
And, when a baby cries in public, my heart gets smashed.
Only, I love kids. I always have. I don't want to feel like this anymore.
I don't want to feel tears run to my eyes every time I see or hear a child.
I hope this too, shall pass.
And, the worst part? I don't know how to fix it.
Don't know how to get over it.